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05 September 2008 @ 07:23 am
[FIC] Change of Heart - Chapter Fifteen  
Title: Change of Heart
Author: Amouralamer
Length:15/20 (Unless LJ makes me split them up further)
Pairings: Jaejoong/Changmin, Others
Rating: Nc-17
Warnings: Melodrama? Fluffy sap?
Genre: Au, Romance, Smut, Fluffy sap (Flap?)
Summary: Jaejoong and Changmin are straight, college students and fellow co-workers. A night out starts a chain reaction that changes their lives forever.

Disclaimer: I love them and by the laws of stalkerdom that makes them mine!

A/N: This one is pretty short too and it is probably my last post until Sunday.



Changmin pushes his way inside and shuts the door without taking his eyes off of Jaejoong. They just stare at each other.

Jaejoong is sexy, barefoot in a pair of loose sweats and a black wifebeater. Min's eyes feast on the sight. Muscled arms and shoulders, collarbone, abs that the clinging shirt did little to obscure and long legs that Changmin can still feel pressed against his thighs.

The heat was becoming unbearable and Min was oblivious to the fact that he was drenched from head to toe. Wet hair was plastered to his neck and face. The water dripping down his back was cold, but Min didn't feel it. All he knows is Jaejoong.

It felt like forever since he had seen Jae, touched him. He just stands there, drinking the other man into his heart. He can't move, it's like he's been paralyzed.

Jaejoong, not knowing what to say to Min now that he has him there, bites his lip. That's all it takes.

In the blink of an eye Changmin has Jaejoong in his arms, kissing him with a blind desperation. Jaejoong is just as frantic, wrenching and tugging until he has Min's long coat off and thrown to the floor.

Min breaks away only so that they can rip their t-shirts off over their heads. Jaejoong in his sweats and Changmin in his jeans. Their hands are a blur on each other's bodies.

Jaejoong ran his tongue across his lips, still moist from Changmin's kiss. He tastes like rain. Jae thought, clutching and running his hands over Min's back in a frenzy to prove to himself that it wasn't a dream. That had happened more than once in the time they had been separated.

Changmin roughly shoves Jaejoong to the floor and follows him down.

Gripping the waistbands of Jae's sweats and boxers Min pulls them off and finally Jaejoong is naked before him.

Not bothering to take the time to divest himself of his own pants, he just lowers them enough to release his straining flesh. Working up as much saliva as he can Min uses that and the precum already leaking from the tip of his member to lube himself up.

Reaching down, Changmin grabs Jaejoong's legs and throws them over his shoulders. Leaning forward, doubling Jae back on himself, Min takes a bruising hold on Jaejoong's hips and sheaths himself with one fierce thrust.


It hurt. It hurt, but Jaejoong didn't care. He needed this. Needed Min inside him. The pain was worth having Changmin in his arms again.

He bit his lip to stifle any involuntary noises. To keep from drawing attention to his discomfort. Bit almost hard enough to draw blood. And then, as his body got used to it, it didn't hurt anymore. Now he could feel the ecstasy he had felt once before start to build.

With his legs pressed to his chest it was a little hard for Jaejoong to take a deep breath, but in a strange way that only added to the pleasure.

Changmin's mouth was buried in Jaejoong's neck. Nipping and sucking. Leaving bruises and open mouthed kisses on the sensitive flesh. I love it when he does that. He had missed Min so much. And the thought that he might never see his lover, his love, again had almost broken him. Especially when he knew it was all his fault.

Tightening his hold on Changmin's neck Jaejoong started crying. He didn't know what would happen in the future, but he had Min in his arms now.


Jaejoong says Min's name with tears in his voice as well as his eyes, but Changmin hears nothing over his heartbeat.

It roars in his ears like the surf. Howls like a violent wind, a hurricane striking a once peaceful shore. The world was spinning and his thoughts were just as chaotic. Hurt, anger, sadness, love and lust. Jealousy. Jaejoong.

The only thing that mattered was Jaejoong. He was the world. His scent, his taste, his arms wrapped tight around Changmin's neck, the indescribable feeling of being inside him again and the love. The love Changmin felt towards Jaejoong flared hot and burned him to cinders. His bones felt charred by the intensity of the flame searing his soul.

There was no meter to Min's thrusts, just force and velocity. It wasn't about sex or even pleasure, it was about touching the other as deeply as possible.

Feeling himself rapidly approaching his orgasm, Changmin's grip on Jaejoong tightens.

"Jaejoongjaejoongjaejoong", all Min can do is gasp Jae's name over and over again. A mantra of love and longing.

Jaejoong knows that Min is close. Pulling Changmin's head back Jaejoong kisses him for all he is worth. He doesn't want this to end, but realizing that he can feel Changmin's heartbeat pulsing inside him sends Jaejoong over the edge. With a clenching of inner muscle he takes his lover with him.

Changmin collapses on Jaejoong, their sweat covered bodies heaving with a need for oxygen. Awkwardly letting Jaejoong's legs down, Min drops his cheek against Jae's chest. Panting and breathing in the scent of their sex.

As Min lays on Jaejoong trying to catch his breath he knows that he can't leave Jaejoong alone. Defeated, completely abandoning his pride he says,

"I don't care anymore. I don't care if you can't let go of Yoochun. I love you and I'll take whatever part of you that you're willing to give me."

Jaejoong's heart soars at Changmin's confession of love, but breaks at the pain he hears in Min's voice.

"Min, I lov-"

Changmin's hand quickly covers Jaejoong's mouth and prevents the words from escaping.

"Don't say it!", taking a deep breath, trying to keep from crying, Min says, "Don't say it. Don't tell me you love me. Not when you're still with him."

The tears start to fall no matter how hard he tries to stop them.

"Not when you only want me in the dark. When I'm just a dirty little secret."

Pulling Min's hand from his mouth Jaejoong whispers,
"Min, it's not like that."

"Then how is it?"

"It's...Yoochun is...I...I'm", knowing he can't tell Min the truth, Jaejoong falls silent.

Hurt and frustrated Min sits up and turns away, his back to Jaejoong. Scooting behind the bent back of his young lover, Jaejoong wraps his arms around Min's neck. He feels Min stiffen at his touch.

He says softly, "I'm sorry Min. I can't tell you about Yoochun. I want to, but I can't. Maybe someday. I hope so. Until then please believe me Min. I do love you. I love you..." Jaejoong searches for words to adequately describe the enormity of his affections. "...as much as you love food."

A snort of surprised laughter escapes from Changmin's mouth against his will. Min looks over his shoulder at the gorgeous, naked man behind him. Searching Jaejoong's eyes Min is calmed by whatever he sees there. Turning and taking that beautiful face in his hands he whispers,

"Oh, yeah? Well, I love you more than you love me then because I love you more than I love food."

Jaejoong smiles at Changmin as his eyes get cloudy,

"Even MY food?"

Changmin nods.

"Even your food."

Feeling a draft wafting across their sweaty skin, the boys finally realize that they are buck naked in the entryway of Jaejoong's apartment. They move to remedy the situation.

Stooping to pick up his shirt, Changmin says,
"I'm glad no one was home. There is no way they wouldn't have heard us."

"Eun Bi is here, actually." At Min's horrified look, Jaejoong rushes to put his mind at ease. "Don't worry, she sleeps like the dead."

"Junsu isn't here too is he?"

"No. Su and Ye-ryeon have gone to tell her parents about their engagement. He won't be back until late." Taking Changmin's hand Jaejoong asks him, "Are you hungry?"


After feeding Changmin Jaejoong wordlessly asks Min to spend the night and just as silently, he agrees.



Cast Pics!

The lovely Kim Jaejoong! Okay. So I put in the smaller pic, but I added a second one!

The exquisite Shim Changmin!

Horikita Maki

The charismatic Kim Junsu!


The aegyo Jung Yunho!


The sultry Park Yoochun!

The delectable Joo Jihoon!

Kim Heechul. How can you not love Chullie!

Kang Eun Bi. Blech!

I forgot to add Yoon Eun Hye! Love her!

Current Location: Out the door
Current Mood: rushedrushed
Current Music: Last Angel by K.K. and Thsk
狡猾な女_fujitsu_ on September 5th, 2008 02:47 pm (UTC)
another "OMG! OMG! OMG!!!" - post from me^^
just.. just....
want next!!!! =)))) as usual^^
狡猾な女_fujitsu_ on September 5th, 2008 02:52 pm (UTC)
my I am SOOO interested about why does not YooChun allow Jae to tell about their contract...

(no subject) - amouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:43 am (UTC) (Expand)
-purplehaze_33 on September 5th, 2008 02:50 pm (UTC)
apologies honey for not commenting but i have been following your series♥

i have no time to update any of my shit either because uni starts monday and the nervousness is giving me a writer's block now>.<

i love this chapter, it was intense, it was heart breaking, it was beautiful

good work=]
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:44 am (UTC)
Thank you so much!♥

Good luck at Uni!
rshauna on September 5th, 2008 03:06 pm (UTC)
I hope Min beleives Jae, and gives him a chance. Chun will understand right? I mean he's given up on revenge n he n Jae seems buddy like now.

Loving this. <3
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:44 am (UTC)
realitywaiting on September 5th, 2008 03:32 pm (UTC)
Yayz! hopefully...things don't go TOO bad and they manage to...stay together without much hassle from yoochun...er....I don't even know anymore! *waits* ♥
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:45 am (UTC)
Thanks for reading and commenting! I'll post again on Sunday.
romanchika: jaeminromanchika on September 5th, 2008 04:04 pm (UTC)
this chappie makes me all happy ^^
holy reconciliation smut!~
that's one huge pic of YEH, i <3 her too~
keep the updates coming! :)
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:47 am (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it!

I know, I was in such a rush this morning to get this post up that I didn't have a chance to resize the pic.
hollyhock: Jaeminhollyhockyuu on September 5th, 2008 04:44 pm (UTC)
OMG, and all that was on Jae's door? xD
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:48 am (UTC)
*smiles* On the floor of his entryway, just inside his apartment. :)
Laurennarcolept_smurf on September 5th, 2008 05:13 pm (UTC)
Aww that was cute and sexy at the same time O_o i love the part at the end about loving more/as much as food XD MinFood, my OTP XDDD
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:49 am (UTC)
Hahaha! I've never heard someone say that MinFood was their OTP before!
(no subject) - narcolept_smurf on September 6th, 2008 06:35 am (UTC) (Expand)
vampy_82vampy_82 on September 5th, 2008 05:28 pm (UTC)
OMG! OMG! This is made of so much wind =]
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:50 am (UTC)
Thanks so much!
emda: Jaeminemda on September 5th, 2008 05:57 pm (UTC)
wow... so hot and almost heartbreaking
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:50 am (UTC)
*salutes* Yes, ma'am! LOL!
&katya;: DBSK - CM - Breathtaking T_Tkatzk on September 5th, 2008 06:41 pm (UTC)
Ahhhhhhhhh they confessed to each other!
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ nnnnghghgkjdfgggg♥

(I feel like a silly teenager fan, LOL! Your fic does it to me xDD)
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:51 am (UTC)
Finally, I know! XD Thanks!
heartless156 on September 5th, 2008 06:43 pm (UTC)
YAH!!!! they make-up... I luv you... for a moment there, I thought Min will stay mad at Jae and run into someone else's arm for comfort... ***I know,I read TOO many of those ff and seen too many of these drama**** XP

but.... I LUV you and this story nonetheless!!!!!
can't wait for the next update!!!!
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:52 am (UTC)
Thanks so much! I don't think I'd ever have the characters run to someone else...I just couldn't do it! :)
Stephanietheresa_lynne on September 5th, 2008 08:47 pm (UTC)
Awww. Poor Changmin. I totally understand him giving up his pride. But luckily, Jaejoong really loves him back and there is really nothing going on between Jae and Chun. :)
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:53 am (UTC)
Yeah, he loves Jae so much...too bad Jaejoong can't tell him what's up.
yukichan13yukichan13 on September 5th, 2008 08:50 pm (UTC)
Aww, they made up...but its still kinda sad =/
How long until the baby is born? Jae only has to stay with Yoochun until then, right?
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:54 am (UTC)
Right. The contract was for six months. :)
yumeneyumene on September 5th, 2008 10:51 pm (UTC)
OHH HAVE TO WAIT TILL THEN...sunday.. but anyways, Iam happy.... that confession...oh Min how sweet! but... what´s that raping jaejoong on the floor!!! OhmyGOD.... !! only saliva!!!?? THAT HURTS!! poor Jae! did Changmin want to PUnish him for something??? that´s one week jaejoong has to STAND. AG well... poor jae, fighting, I will send you some gel for your sore ass..my love<3 I wonder what will yoochun think if he knows about Jaemin?? will he be against it? will he force jae to have sex with him knowing he´s not THAT straight anymore?? would allow it?? hummmm sundayyy!!
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 03:58 am (UTC)
No, Min wasn't trying to punish Jae, he was just kinda out of control.

Yoochun isn't interested in Jaejoong like that so he'd never demand sex from Jae.
지지epiktraveller on September 5th, 2008 10:55 pm (UTC)
YEH is supercute....!!

yay for JaeMin....!! they're back....!! *squee~*

im glas Min choose his need than is pride~ coz dang he need Jae~~ fufufuu~

update soon dear~ im wondering bout Hosu, will there be YooSu~?? im a YooSu fan but your Chun is childish n Su need Yun.... HoSuChun mayb? kekekekee....
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 6th, 2008 04:02 am (UTC)
No YooSu. :)
Update on Sunday! :D
(no subject) - epiktraveller on September 6th, 2008 05:38 am (UTC) (Expand)