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02 September 2008 @ 08:48 pm
[FIC] Change of Heart - Chapter Thirteen  
Title: Change of Heart
Author: Amouralamer
Length: 13/20 (Unless LJ makes me split them up further)
Pairings: Jaejoong/Changmin, Others
Rating: Nc-17
Warnings: Melodrama? Fluffy sap?
Genre: Au, Romance, Smut, Fluffy sap (Flap?)
Summary: Jaejoong and Changmin are straight, college students and fellow co-workers. A night out starts a chain reaction that changes their lives forever.

Disclaimer: They SHOULD belong to me.

A/N: Nothing new to add! :)


Changmin wakes up in the same position he had fallen asleep in. Feeling sticky and in need of a shower, he tenderly kisses the palm of Jaejoong's hand and holds it to his cheek before sliding out of Jae's embrace. At the movement, Jaejoong shifts in his sleep.

Looking back, Changmin sees the breathtaking image of Kim Jaejoong, laying on his stomach, a sheet barely covering him up to the waist. The early morning sun was painting his muscular back and shoulders in majestic hues of white and gold. Min takes a moment to watch Jaejoong sleeping, loving that Jae was finally in his bed. Leaning over, Changmin places a lingering kiss on Jaejoong's cheek. Heading to the bathroom Min smiles to himself, wondering what Jae was going to make him for breakfast.

Jaejoong awakens to the sound of running water. Stretching, he smiles. Marmalade is sleeping in Min's spot and Jaejoong cuddles her, thinking about Changmin. Their night together had been incredible. A sensual shiver ran down his spine at the memories.

Min comes out of the bathroom in only a towel, long hair still dripping onto his shoulders. Their eyes meet and they can't help but give each other silly smiles. Walking over to the bed whereupon lay the fair form of his love, Changmin gives Jaejoong a kiss.

"Good Morning."

"Good Morning."

Changmin's eyes widen as Jaejoong rolls him onto the bed and pulls off his towel all in one smooth movement. Throwing it across the room with a flourish Jae smiles and says,

"That's better."

Stretching his head up, Min lightly nips Jaejoong's throat and kisses the birthmark that lurked just below his chin. Changmin loved the freckles that dotted Jaejoong's face and body. They were like nature's way of saying, "kiss here, touch there". Not that he needed to be told.

Changmin gasped against Jae's throat as he felt Jaejoong start stroking his cock. Looking down their bodies Min watched Jae's graceful fingers on his swelling flesh.

Reaching out his own hand Min thought he should return the favor. He hadn't gotten a chance to touch Jaejoong like this last night. He had wanted to, but once he had finally gotten Jaejoong out of his pants Jae had taken over.

His lover was already hard. Changmin watched as their hands worked each others rigid members. Jaejoong had his eyes shut and was biting his lower lip. Both of them were breathing hard, moaning soft.

Looking into Jaejoong's face, Min saw the tip of Jae's tongue sweep over his lips as he opened his eyes just enough to give Min a look that was pure sex. The sight was so erotic that it took Changmin's breath away.

Moving his free hand to the nape of Jaejoong's neck, Min pulled him down for a kiss, all tongues and heated breath.
Jaejoong bit Min's lip, tugging a little. Releasing it he ran his tongue over the marks his teeth had left behind then slid it back into Changmin's mouth.

Min opened wide as Jaejoong's tongue darted into every nook and cranny. Finally letting Changmin up for air, Jaejoong reached for the lube, but Min stops him, shaking his head.


At Jae's questioning look Min says,
"My turn."

Jaejoong is reluctant. Even after he started wanting Changmin and imagined them being together, he never imagined Min topping him. It never even crossed his mind. He tries in a roundabout way to talk Min out of it.

"Are-are you sure? We've already done it the other way. You enjoyed it, right? I mean, why mess with a good thing? Right? Right Min? Are you really sure you're up for this? Ah!" Jaejoong jumped.
"Heh heh, bad choice of words! I meant are you sure you're ready? Maybe we should wait awhile before we try it this way. Let's just get used to it the other way first. You know, before we try new stuff. Don't you think that's a good idea? Huh? Min? I think that's a good idea."

As Jaejoong babbles, Changmin gently flips him onto his hands and knees.

Kneeling between Jaejoong's legs, he presses himself against Jaejoong's ass, rubbing his length against the cleft of Jaejoong's rear.

"Jaejoong, I let you inside of me. Don't you want to feel me inside of you?" Min leans over and kisses the small of Jaejoong's back, stroking up and over his shoulders. "I want to be inside of you." he whispers.

Jaejoong, knowing that Changmin has never experienced that before, wants him to. But that doesn't mean it has to be me! his mind shouts at him. Then he thinks,But if it isn't me, will he go to someone else? For some reason Jaejoong hates the thought of Min with anyone else. That left him with only one option. He nods,


Min reaches beneath them and takes Jaejoong in his hand again, stroking and pumping Jae's member until it is oozing precum and Jaejoong is gripping the sheets and moaning softly.

Then, coating the fingers of one hand in lube, Changmin places the other hand on the small of Jaejoong's back and starts to prep him.

Jaejoong tenses up at the first gentle probing. He tries to make himself relax, but it doesn't work very well. He doesn't know why it is so hard for him, why he is so resistant, but Changmin does.

Min knows that Jaejoong has never liked giving control of himself over to other people. Even the people he loves. Jaejoong never lets himself get into a position where he needs to depend on others.

Min is patient and works his fingers inside Jaejoong until he is satisfied that it was enough. Coating his dick with the lube (Bubblegum Blast this time) Changmin took a hold of Jaejoong's waist and pulled the other man back onto himself until his tip disappeared inside of Jae's entrance.

Jaejoong was panting with the effort of trying to stay unclenched as Changmin pushed into him. Changmin was panting at the feeling of being inside of Jaejoong.

Slick and hot and oh so tight. It was almost enough to undo him by itself. When he felt like he could move without having everything end prematurely, Min pulled back, then pushed forward again.

He repeated this a few times, slowly, just enjoying the new sensations, the delicious friction, the motions. Taking the time to work himself deeper into Jaejoong with each roll of his hips.

Min wants so much for Jaejoong to enjoy this, to enjoy being taken by him. To want it in the future. To want him in the future. Tightening his grip on Jaejoong's waist Min gets down to business.

Stroking Jaejoong as he moves in him, Min can tell that Jae is still tense. He can tell that Jaejoong is still holding back. Changmin stops moving.

"Jaejoong...let go."

Changmin slides his hands first down the outside and then back up the inside of Jaejoong's thighs. Passing his
palms along Jae's sides, over his shoulders and down his beautifully muscled arms Min pries Jaejoong's hands from their desperate grip on the sheets and intertwines their fingers together.

Wrapping himself completely around his lover Changmin kisses Jaejoong's elegant skin in between murmurs,

"What are you afraid of? *kiss* Let go Jaejoong. *kiss* Mmn...you feel so good. *kiss* I've got you. *kiss* You know you don't have to be the Hyung with me. *kiss* Let me take care of you. *kiss* Let me make you feel good. *kiss* Don't you trust me? *kiss* Then let go. *kiss* It is just the two of us, there is no one else here. *kiss* We're completely alone. *kiss* Let go....."

Don't you trust me? Jaejoong knows that he can trust Min not to hurt him physically. Now he realizes that he needs to trust Min with the rest of him, too. He has to let Changmin inside him, emotionally. He panics a little at the thought. Min could hurt him so badly. He's worth the risk. And Jaejoong knows it's true, knows that having Changmin was worth any pain he might have in the future.

He knew then that he didn't just want Min in his bed, didn't just want a fuck buddy. He wanted so much more. I love him he thought with wonder. And he knew that wanting more meant that sometimes he has to let Changmin lead. He couldn't be in control all the time.

Accepting, decision made, he felt at peace. In that moment Jaejoong gave himself to Changmin entirely. His heart felt like a flower, unfurling to welcome the first brilliant rays of dawn after a long moonless night.

Feeling suddenly boneless, Jaejoong leans forward until his cheek is resting on the mattress. Min, who has been kissing and whispering to Jaejoong the whole time, feels it when Jae lets go of his tension and gives himself up completely.

Still wrapped around Jaejoong, Changmin starts to move again and the difference is like night and day. With Jaejoong relaxed he takes Min so much easier. The rhythm is smoother and it doesn't take long for Min to find Jaejoong's pleasure spot. It was good before, but this was so much better.

The heat radiating from Jaejoong's body was intense. Seeing a drop of sweat between the older man's shoulder blades, Min laps it up and stays to suck on the spot. He loved the taste of Jaejoong's skin.

And the sounds! The sounds emanating from Jaejoong's mouth the closer he got to coming were the sexiest thing Changmin had ever heard in his life.

It made Min realize that as much as Jaejoong enjoyed last night, he hadn't fully let go even then.

Taking one of their entwined hands and moving them to Jaejoong's cock, Min starts pumping him in time with his thrusts (just as he had read online) and Jaejoong starts to make the hottest noise in the back of his throat. Smirking at Jaejoong's obvious enjoyment, Changmin thinks
Jaejoong should be glad that I'm a nerd.


The sound of his name spilling from Jaejoong's glorious lips in tones of unadulterated sex drove Changmin beyond the capacity for rational thought.

As Min's thrusts get harder and faster Jaejoong starts to see stars. Enveloped in the embrace of his lover, face pressed into the mattress, Jaejoong is unaware of the noises he is making and their affect on Min.

His awareness is centered solely on the pleasure he is feeling. Changmin moving within him and their joined hands stroking him, hot fluid flooding deep inside and the knowledge that Min just came in him combined to give Jaejoong an orgasm like he has never known.

He shouts Min's name out loud as he comes, hard. Shooting his seed into both of their hands in a powerful torrent.


A little later, once they'd recovered, Changmin's stomach let Jaejoong know that it was time for breakfast. Jaejoong insisted on getting cleaned up first though. A long shower that started with pushing, splashing and fighting over the soap and ended with soft caresses and tender kisses.

Breakfast turned out to be bowls of cold cereal since Changmin had no food in his cupboards.

"How can someone who likes to eat as much as you do let their cupboards get so empty?"

"I bought groceries." Changmin shrugged. "Then I ate 'em."


Changmin walked Jaejoong the short distance between their two apartments. It was a journey of brushed fingers, secret smiles and stolen glances.

Standing outside of Jae's door Min asks him,
"You want to have dinner with me?"

Jaejoong hesitates,
"I can't. I've got a date. With Yoochun."

Changmin, struck painfully at the mention of Jaejoong's boyfriend says,
"You should break up with him."

Jaejoong can see the pain in Changmin's face and knows that there is no way he can relieve it. Not until his contract with Yoochun expired.
"I can't do that Min."

"Why not?"

Jaejoong, having no reason he could give, looks away. Trying to take Min's mind off of his question Jae unwisely suggests,
"Why don't you come over after he leaves."

Taking a deep breath, his heart breaking, Min tells him,
"I'm not going to be your fuck on the side, Jaejoong. Maybe you were right yesterday, we should just forget this ever happened."

Jaejoong doesn't have a chance to respond as Changmin quickly turns and leaves. He doesn't know what to say anyway. He wasn't free to love Min as long as he was bound to Yoochun.


Yunho has a killer hangover. After puking up what felt like a lung and sleeping on his bathroom floor for a few more hours, he cleans himself up and wonders how he got home.

Wracking his brain he finally comes up with a fuzzy image of a taxi and Junsu. Wincing at the impression he must have made, Yunho knows he needs to call the other man and apologize.






"Look, I know you don't want me to contact you, but I just wanted to apologize for the trouble I caused you last night. That was you right?"


"Did...did I call you?"

"No, the bartender called me."

Neither one of them touched on why Yunho had Junsu's number in his phone.

"Oh. Well, thank you. For, um, bringing me home and stuff."
Yunho winced, Could you BE any lamer?

"You're welcome. I bet you felt pretty bad this mor..."

"I want to see you."

The words were out of Yunho's mouth before he could stop them. There was nothing on the other end of the line but silence. He was about to apologize again and say forget it when he heard a soft, barely there,


Getting out of the cab and walking up to Yunho's front door, Junsu was STILL telling himself what a bad idea this was. He could hear the want in Yunho's voice over the phone and it crumbled all the defenses Junsu had in place to resist him.

Yunho answered the door almost before Junsu was finished knocking. Letting Su in he gestured for Junsu to lead them into the living room.

Reaching the living room they stopped. Silent and awkward, they looked everywhere, but at each other.

Yunho makes the first move as he leaves an open mouthed kiss on the back of Junsu's neck. Wrapping his arms around Su, Yunho pushes him up against the wall still kissing and sucking every inch of skin he could reach.

Junsu was lost. Yunho was the only person who had ever made him weak. He just couldn't hold onto his resolve when it came to Yunho.

Yunho turns Su and presses his back against the wall, pinning the younger man with his body. Junsu grips Yunho's hair and pulls him into a kiss.

Reaching between them, Yunho undoes Junsu's jeans and pulls them down as far as he can without letting go of Junsu's lips. Undoing his own fly, Yunho pulls his rock hard dick out of it's torturous confinement.

Sliding his hands between Junsu's knees, Yunho hooks his arms around Junsu's legs and lifts the other man up. With a heavy groan he sheathed himself in his lover in one swift stroke.

Gravity keeps Junsu fully seated on Yunho's cock. Yunho, still weak from last night barely has the strength to hold Junsu up.
His movements in and out of the other man are small, but powerful and Junsu can feel his eyes rolling back into his head at the constant stimulation his prostate was receiving.

Knowing they won't last long Junsu reaches down and starts fisting himself, Yunho's name on his lips. Yunho keeps up his hard rhythm, his body pounding Junsu against the wall and creating a dull thumping noise with every stroke.

Afterward, Yunho just holds Junsu against the wall, face buried in the crook of his lover's neck.

"Yunho, this has got to stop. I'm engaged."

The words were muffled due to the fact that Yunho didn't take his face from it's spot on Junsu's neck, but Su heard them anyway.
"Leave her."

Trying to end it once and for all Junsu says,
"No. I love her."

Drawing a painfilled breath, Yunho finally looks Junsu in the face.
"If you love her so much, why are you here with me?"

"Whatever my reasons are for what I'm doing, one thing is certain. I will never out myself. I will never hurt my family like that."

Yunho has nothing to say to that. He understands all too well how negatively a man's family can react to the news that he is gay.

"Then be with me until you marry her."

Rubbing his face with his hands Junsu says with exasperation,
"You must be crazy!"



Cast Pics!

The lovely Kim Jaejoong! Okay. So I put in the smaller pic, but I added a second one!

The exquisite Shim Changmin!

Horikita Maki

The charismatic Kim Junsu!


The aegyo Jung Yunho!


The sultry Park Yoochun!

The delectable Joo Jihoon!

Kim Heechul. How can you not love Chullie!

Kang Eun Bi. Blech!


♥ I love my Susu!♥
Current Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
Current Music: My Page by Xiah Junsu
hollyhockhollyhockyuu on September 3rd, 2008 05:15 am (UTC)
SPOT!! (I think O.o)
hollyhock: fuking genkihollyhockyuu on September 3rd, 2008 05:17 am (UTC)
YAY!!! First XD well I liked it! but JAE!!! Tell Changmin about Yoochun =_= why the men want to do all the things more complicated? aren't they the rarional ones? (I don't even know if that is well writed XD but, you understand?)._.

Me dan ganas de golpearlo ¬¬
(no subject) - amouralamer on September 3rd, 2008 06:15 am (UTC) (Expand)
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Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 3rd, 2008 06:16 am (UTC)
I squee everytime I see that pic!

Mwahaha! Nothing is ever that simple! XD
지지epiktraveller on September 3rd, 2008 05:24 am (UTC)
SU's pic is supercute....!!

omoo....stupid contract! *burn JaeChun contract*
Chun! come here with me! leave JaeMin. *drags Chun*

so..so....what will happen now? jaemin? hosu? jaechun? *faints*
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 3rd, 2008 06:17 am (UTC)
*fansyou* Wakey wakey! Su is SO cute! *happysigh* I loves him...
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hardlychosenhardlychosen on September 3rd, 2008 05:33 am (UTC)

In an amazingly sexy and smutty way, but crazy none the less and DEMAND that JaeMin be together forever and that Su leaves her to be with Yunni and that Chunnie decides to just cancel the contract and GIVE Jae the money.

And they'll all live happily ever after.

The End.

Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 3rd, 2008 06:19 am (UTC)
Ha ha! Hey! Crazy can be good! :)
yapschan on September 3rd, 2008 07:13 am (UTC)
I reallt do love your fic !! I know it's a jaemin fic but damn i fan of ths hosu part *anticipation* Im curious about jaeminchun part to anyway lol
thx for sharing
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 3rd, 2008 01:52 pm (UTC)
Thanks! ♥
realitywaiting on September 3rd, 2008 08:08 am (UTC)
:D! it's just after 4am and i'm so not coherent bakc in...er...later?... ~_~!
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 3rd, 2008 01:53 pm (UTC)
Ok! *waves*
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emda: Yunhoemda on September 3rd, 2008 01:18 pm (UTC)
... I have nearly no words for the jaemin besides hot and then sad.
and yes Yunho is crazy!!!!!!!
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 3rd, 2008 01:55 pm (UTC)
XD Thanks for reading and commenting!
yukichan13yukichan13 on September 3rd, 2008 08:06 pm (UTC)
Aww, it was so sweet in the beginning but then they had to mention Yoochun D=
Poor Changmin is going to keep thinking he`s just the other guy =[
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 4th, 2008 01:17 am (UTC)
Yes, the afterglow didn't last very long did it?
狡猾な女_fujitsu_ on September 3rd, 2008 09:07 pm (UTC)
aaa... morning JaeMiiiin =^.^=

I hope Jae will solve his problem with YooChun... for not loosing Min^^

&.. I am in love with this HoSu more & more^^
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 4th, 2008 01:19 am (UTC)
Yeah, I like Yunho and Junsu together. Glad you're liking it! :)
lil_tvxqcamperlil_tvxqcamper on September 3rd, 2008 09:25 pm (UTC)
I thought everything was sunhsine and happiness, guess not, huh?
Well Changmin will have to wait, and will Jaejoong tell Yoochun about his relationship? I wonder...
and Yunho, he's cute, although crazy, but cute, ne?
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 4th, 2008 01:21 am (UTC)
The JaeMin happy didn't last very long. :( It'll come back! :)
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Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 4th, 2008 03:09 am (UTC)
LOL! Thanks for reading and commenting!
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Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on September 4th, 2008 02:05 pm (UTC)
I love that pic! n_n

Thanks for reading and commenting!
d1104d1104 on July 17th, 2009 05:24 am (UTC)
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on July 18th, 2009 10:39 pm (UTC)
Yeah, a couple of the chapters were shorter than I originally realized. It's not so bad when you get to read the fic all at once though.