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19 August 2008 @ 03:36 pm
[FIC] Change of Heart - Chapter Three  
Title: Change of Heart
Author: Amouralamer
Length: 3/20 (Unless LJ makes me split them up further)
Pairings: Jaejoong/Changmin, Others
Rating: Fic: Up to Nc-17, This Chapter: PG-13
Warnings: Melodrama? Fluffy sap?
Genre: Au, Romance, Smut, Fluffy sap (Flap?)
A/N: Cast pics and full A/N at the bottom of the page.
Summary: Jaejoong and Changmin are straight, college students and fellow co-workers. A night out starts a chain reaction that changes their lives forever.
(Okay, so I kinda like my summary, but it makes the story sound mysterious when it totally isn't so in the end my summary is fail. :( )

Disclaimer: If I had the money, I would buy them. I'd still let them release cds, but no one would be allowed to touch them. :) ♥Just me♥



Jaejoong awakens to find that, while he was sleeping, someone had been hitting him repeatedly in the head with some sort of.....hammer. A hard, pointy one. Not only that, but there was the most annoying furry creature clinging like a leach to his tongue. If the light wasn't so bright maybe he could do something about it.

"Would somebody PLEASE turn off the sun?"

Trying to roll over, away from the glare, Jaejoong bumps into something. Or rather someone.

Images started flashing through his muddled head.






    Vague images of a worried looking Changmin.


              Fumbling for keys.

    More stumbling through the apartment.

                          Falling onto the bed.

      Pale skin.

            Breathy moans.

                Slim arms looped around his neck.

  Sinking into a tight heat.

"Fluffy Bunny my ass!" The only fluffy bunny, Jaejoong thinks, is the one on my tongue! The skanky bitch tricked me!. Jaejoong's groans of realization wake the skanky bitch up, also with a killer hangover, but also in a panic because she stayed out all night.

"OMO! My parents are going to KILL ME!"

Once Jaejoong gets past the agony her banshee-like screech caused his head he starts to panic a little himself. Sitting up he asks her,
"Just how old are you?!"

"Twenty-two, why?"

Jaejoong doesn't bother answering. At least she's legal. He flops back down onto the mattress in relief.

Eun Bi stumbles out of bed, totally naked and totally unconcerned about it. No modesty whatsoever. She sneered.
"I'm legal if that's what you're worried about. I'm in college, but I still live at home with my parents."

Searching through the mess of discarded garments and bedcovers looking for her clothes she continues,
"It's a nightmare! My parents are horrible! I can't do anything! Just because they pay for everything doesn't mean they can tell me what to do! I don't care if it is their house! If I do anything they don't like, anything at all, they ground me and take away my credit cards! What the hell right?!"

Jaejoong let the rest of her tirade wash over him. She was mostly clothed now, clutching her bra in her hand. Pouring himself out of bed and taking her elbow Jaejoong led her to the front door, she was still talking. Hearing a choking noise Jaejoong looked up to see Junsu standing in the door of his room looking way too amused for Jaejoong's taste. What the hell was so funny?

Used to ignoring Eun Bi by now, concentrating on getting her out of there, he had totally missed her aggrivated snarling of:
"Where the FUCK are my underwear?!"

All he knows is that her voice is grating on his brain and he just wants her to leave so that he can die in peace. Jaejoong finally gets her into a cab and is just so very grateful to see the last of her.

"Looks like somebody got lucky last night!"

"Shut up."

Su just snickers at the pitiful condition his hyung is in.

Sleep. He just wants to sleep. Crawling into bed like one of the living dead Jaejoong lets out a piteous moan. Bed. Good. His respite is interrupted however by a chipper Changmin who has come by to see if he is okay. Changmin had been hoping that Jaejoong would cook for him, but one look and he can tell that Jaejoong is in no shape to stand, much less cook him delicious foods. So Min helps himself to all the leftovers in the fridge.

Junsu comes into the kitchen just in time to steal the last piece of cold galbi, "Hey!" and asks what Min's plans for the day are.

"I'm meeting Maki at the library."

"Just what is it with you two and the library?" Su grins at Changmin and whispers, "Are you having kinky library sex?"

Changmin gives him a withering look around a spoonful of rice.

"Isn't it hard to really get it on when you're supposed to be so quiet?"

"Ah, Junsu Hyung," Min looked up at Junsu, radiating earnest sympathy, "it must be really hard on you...to be controlled by your dick." The faux sympathy vanished. "I think with my other head."

Standing up to place all of the dishes he has emptied into the dishwasher Min says,
"Your woeful ignorance of the true function of a library as a place to garner knowledge and not a love hotel explains why you're grades are so low." Turning around, leaning against the counter and crossing his arms over his chest Min asks, "What rank are you again? 38? Out of what? 32?" Su pretends to be wounded.

Changmin looks puzzled. "But something doesn't make sense Hyung."

Junsu just grins,"And what is that Dongsaeng?"

"If you really think you can get laid in the library, why don't I see you in it more often?" Min's puzzle demeanor turns snarky, his eyebrow twitches and he sneers. "Did you think you had to pay to get in?"

Junsu pretends to be surprised, "What? There's no cover charge? Well then, I may try kinky library sex myself. If anyone asks I'll be sure to mention that you recommended the place so highly."


Once Jaejoong was feeling human again he cleaned up and headed into the kitchen to get something to eat only to realize that Changmin had eaten everything in the house that didn't require elaborate preparation. Again. There was instant ramen, but as a Chef something about it just felt wrong. Not wanting to really cook anything Jaejoong headed down the street in search of food. Walking into a restaurant that had good smells coming out of it he was bumped into by someone coming around the open door.


"Excuse me."

Looking up, Yoochun was stunned to realize that the man he had bumped into was none other than Yunho's Pretty.

"It's okay, no harm done."

Thinking fast Yoochun smiled at him and said.
"Would you like to join me for lunch? I don't like to eat alone and it's the least I can do for almost killing you."

Jaejoong laughed at the exaggeration and agreed to have lunch with him.

"My name is Yoochun, by the way."

"Jaejoong. Nice to meet you."

"The pleasure is all mine."

Waving goodbye to Jaejoong, Yoochun heads towards his car thinking over the past hour. Jaejoong was cool. Yoochun really liked him and he could definitely see the attraction that the other man held for Yunho. He had learned that Jaejoong worked at a cafe and Jaejoong had even invited him to check it out. He knew he would, not only because he enjoyed Jaejoong's company, but because he may find ways to get back at Yunho.


At home the house is quiet and Junsu is feeling restless. It was a feeling he was getting more and more often lately. Not wanting to continue pacing around the house he decides to go for a walk. Taking a taxi to Seoul Forest Junsu starts to stroll by the river. He's been doing a lot of thinking recently. His and Ye-ryeon's one year anniversary was fast approaching and he needed to find a gift for her. He wants it to be special, something she will really love.

A jogger runs past him on his right, toned and tan and Junsu admires the view, thinking about last night.


Ye-ryeon had to work the next day so she and Junsu only spent a short time at the club. They danced for a while and then left to go get something to eat. Afterwards, Junsu took her home and headed back to the club to join Min and Jaejoong only to learn from Min that their Hyung had left, apparently drunk, with some strange girl.

"I've had enough. Do you want to go get something to eat?"

"I just ate with Ye-ryeon before I took her home. I think I'll stick around for a while."

"Okay, see you later Hyung."

"Bye, Min."

Taking a stool at the bar Junsu orders a club soda. He doesn't drink very often, more than Jaejoong certainly, who can't handle it very well and definitely more than Changmin who doesn't drink at all (he says that alcohol kills brain cells) but tonight he especially doesn't want his judgement hindered.

He notices someone sitting a couple seats down from him. Looks lonely. he thinks and makes his way over. After talking for a little while Su knows that he has found what he is looking for and makes a move so that his intentions are crystal clear.

They go outside and hail a cab, Junsu lingers on the street for a moment before getting in. The cab takes off, the driver already having been given their destination.

"By the way, I'm-"

Su quickly covers the man's mouth. Shaking his head he says,

"No names."

The other man watches him for a moment, eyes serious and then nods. Su removes his hand.

Junsu leans his head back and closes his eyes.

Knowing they can't start anything in the taxi, his companion is silent.

When they get to his house he offers Su a drink, but Junsu just shakes his head and heads straight to the bedroom. Slowly the stranger trails along behind.

It is hard and fast and more than a little desperate. He doesn't know what motivates the other man, but Junsu knows enough about his own demons to recognize that this stranger has them too. The sex is dirty and mindblowing and it leaves Junsu completely satisfied. Laying there, catching his breath Junsu thinks, That should hold me for a while. He doesn't do it often, he doesn't like to cheat on his girlfriend, but sometimes he just needs this.

The stranger tries to wrap an arm around Su's waist and he gently, but firmly discourages it. He isn't there to cuddle. Su leaves in the predawn morning without a word. The man's dark eyes follow his every move as he dresses, equally silent. Words aren't necessary.

It was a one time thing that will never be repeated. After so long, Junsu was an expert at the one night stand. After all, they were the only sexual relationships he had ever had. Never any names, never any repeats so there was never any danger of attatchment.

Junsu had no intentions of falling in love with a man. No intentions of coming out of the closet. He had decided that long ago.

Hailing a cab Su climbed in and gave his address, then leaning his head back, he closed his eyes. Not because he was tired, but so that he would never be able to find his way back.


Junsu feels guilty about cheating on his girlfriend, even if he only asked her out to make it look like he was straight. He feels guilty about that too. He likes Ye-ryeon a lot and wonders if he shouldn't break up with her, but he doesn't want to lose her. She is his best friend. He wishes that he loved her the way he thinks he should. He is so tired of all the secrecy. Tired of only having encounters like the one last night. He never gets to wake up to anyone, never has anyone to hold him at night. He is tired of hiding who he is, but he is scared of his family's reactions. Junsu is at a crossroads in his life. He knows that he needs to make a choice. Either he comes out or he asks Ye-ryeon to marry him and makes a life with her. Su knows he can be an affectionate if not passionate husband to her and knows that she would be a loving wife and mother. His family loves her and her family loves him. He loves them too.

Junsu is gay and he isn't in love with his girlfriend, but he is tired of living a double life. Su knows that he needs to commit to one or the other. He flashes back to Ye-ryeon's kiss, then to the kiss of the stranger from last night. One is full of affection and one is filled with fire. Su feels depressed at the thought of never being with a man again, but when he imagines his family's sadness, disappointment and maybe even disgust he knows he can't tell them. His family is more important to him than anything and he doesn't want them to hate him.

Junsu knows that he will never find a girl who is better suited for him than Ye-ryeon. They would have a good life together. He'd be able to have children.

Nodding to himself, decision made, Su pulls out his phone as plans start forming in his mind and he heads to the jewelry store to purchase a ring.




*This is my first chaptered fic. So please comment if you like it.

*I know it's awkward, hopefully my writing will improve with practice.

*I only speak a little Korean, just enough to probably make me sound stupid so if there are mistakes, that is why.;) I WILL learn it eventually! Me Hwaiting!

*The same goes for any mistakes in the medical...thingies that Changmin says, except that I WILL NOT learn it eventually! XD Me Hwaiting!

*I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I hope you enjoy the story as a whole.

Thanks so much for reading!

Comments are <3!

:) Seriously though, I really do appreciate it when people take the time to comment. ♥

And as promised, cast pics!

The lovely Kim Jaejoong! Sorry it's so big! I'm going to try to resize it. (Personally I like it big!)

The exquisite Shim Changmin!

Horikita Maki

The charismatic Kim Junsu!


The aegyo Jung Yunho!


The sultry Park Yoochun!

The delectable Joo Jihoon!

Kim Heechul. How can you not love Chullie!

Kang Eun Bi. Blech!

Current Location: My Happy Place
Current Mood: soresore
Current Music: What This World Needs by Casting Crowns
Laurennarcolept_smurf on August 20th, 2008 01:00 am (UTC)
Aw poor Su!!! And plotting!Yoochun, fun fun fun!! ^^_
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 20th, 2008 01:03 am (UTC)
Haha! Thanks! Love your icon, btw.
(no subject) - narcolept_smurf on August 20th, 2008 01:11 am (UTC) (Expand)
Laurachangminiminmin on August 20th, 2008 02:13 am (UTC)
so when is jaemin relationship starting? xD
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 20th, 2008 02:40 am (UTC)
Heh heh heh! I'll never tell....:P
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Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 20th, 2008 10:42 am (UTC)
LOL! Everyone wants to know when the JaeMin will show up!
Just have to wait and see!

Thanks for reading and commenting!
hollyhock: fu awesomehollyhockyuu on August 20th, 2008 03:46 am (UTC)
LOL Su... I second changminiminmin question (Maybe I have another answer... I don't think so) well I like this hope you upload soon, Jae told you not to go with her =__=
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 20th, 2008 10:44 am (UTC)
Eun Bi and alcohol...two things Jaejoong should have avoided that night!
凜: MinSupavor_nocturnum on August 20th, 2008 04:19 am (UTC)
Wow, I really loved Junsu's appearance in this chapter
It was very well written
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 20th, 2008 10:45 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! ♥
yapschan on August 20th, 2008 09:10 am (UTC)
it was short but good !! Poor jae...
junsu's GAY wahoo big news !!
now yoochun is in the picture !! any Yoosu at sight ???
thx for sharing
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 20th, 2008 10:50 am (UTC)
Yeah, I didn't realize just how short it was when I was writing it. I hope nobody saw the gay!Junsu coming. *snickers* I like surprises! As for couples other than JaeMin...I didn't list any because I didn't want to give things away. I didn't even want to reveal that this is a JaeMin fic!

Thanks for reading and commenting!
지지epiktraveller on August 20th, 2008 11:33 am (UTC)
junsu....su.....oh my....poor su.....i really thought they'r a lovely couple.

i could never b maki. cant stand of having dates in d library. but, if its with min...ILL TRY my hardest!!! hik2...

n whos junsu slept with? im guessing....chunnie? YOOSU is so much love~~ *wink*
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 20th, 2008 08:49 pm (UTC)
LOL! I'd go with Min anywhere! Kinky library sex sounds good to me! XDDD
Thanks for reading and commenting!
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Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 20th, 2008 08:51 pm (UTC)
It WAS a short chapter. Sorries!
Next chapter should be up tomorrow!

Thanks for reading and commenting!
realitywaiting on August 20th, 2008 02:22 pm (UTC)
I so did not see that coming with Su!! I particularly liked the Minsu banter XD! KYAH! I Can Hardly wait for teh JaeMin!!! and to find out what the heck happened between Yunho and Yoochun!! Did Yunho really cheat on him?!!?! SO MANY QUESTIONS!!!! ♥ *waits for more*
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 20th, 2008 08:55 pm (UTC)
Haha! I hope no one saw the Junsu stuff coming, especially the fact that he was cheating with a MAN!

Next chapter should be up tomorrow unless something comes up.

jedi_babyjedi_baby on August 21st, 2008 05:04 am (UTC)
omg! junsu is gay! whyyy? ahahaha..
i have a feeling that yunho cheated on yoochun with a one night stand from junsu >.>
but yunho still doesn't seem like the type to cheat... so i don't know..
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 21st, 2008 10:43 am (UTC)
Hahaha! It's so much fun reading everyone's guesses!
Thanks so much for reading and commenting!
shinchul303shinchul303 on August 22nd, 2008 12:59 am (UTC)
"He flashes back to Ye-ryeon's kiss, then to the kiss of the stranger from last night. One is full of affection and one is filled with fire."

Nice. The bi thing. Never really understood it, but this helps fill the gap...

Unless I'm totally wrong, it would seem Yunho's much more of a player than we are first led to suspect.
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 22nd, 2008 04:32 am (UTC)
I hope I was successful in conveying that Junsu and Ye-ryeon haven't slept together. It's mentioned kind of obliquely.

"After so long, Junsu was an expert at the one night stand. After all, they were the only sexual relationships he had ever had."

Su is gay, but he feels that he can be with Ye-ryeon.
Thanks for the comments!!!
dongbangniedongbangnie on August 26th, 2008 05:17 pm (UTC)
-_- suyah, should be honest to himself & it's not fair to ye-ryeon. *sigh*
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on August 26th, 2008 08:24 pm (UTC)
Honesty is always the best way to go.
Thanks for reading and commenting!
lil_tvxqcamperlil_tvxqcamper on August 28th, 2008 10:44 pm (UTC)
poor Joongie, he has to put up with Eunbi, I hope he practised safe for sex, if not she's gonna cling to him forever...
And yoochun what motives does he have? only to get back at Yunho, that's pretty mean
Min just coming for food? I love his sarcasm and witty remarks, but I wonder how Jae and min are going to hook up, now it seems like he's pretty happy with Maki... I can stand her, she's pretty nice...
and ye-ryeon too, although it's pretty sad that Junsu's not going to come out of the closet and life a lie, hopefully he'll still find the happiness...
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on June 20th, 2009 03:40 am (UTC)
I can't believe I missed your comment! *hangshead* Sorries!
ai_sumairuai_sumairu on November 10th, 2008 08:49 am (UTC)
Awwwww... Poor Su... But I like his gf too... Seems nice... :( Wonder who that guy was though...

And Yoochun... Now I'm really curious...
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on June 20th, 2009 03:41 am (UTC)
*gasp* I missed two comments?! WTH?! Sorry!
Julie: Minnieyumified_dbsk on December 24th, 2008 03:53 am (UTC)
Poor Su! He doesn't have to hide, I'm sure everyone will accept him.
Joongie... Poor guy. Can't wait to see him with Minnie. :D
And it looks like evil Chunnie is up to no good!
Benevolent Dictatoramouralamer on December 24th, 2008 06:17 pm (UTC)
Thanks for reading!