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Benevolent Dictator
15 August 2012 @ 03:09 pm
In just 11 short days I'm going to be falling asleep to the sound of the surf! I feel more relaxed just thinking about it.:)

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I think that there must surely be
Salt water in my veins
An ocean deep inside of me
With twisted seaweed skeins

A wind blows warm and whispers low
Of sand and tides and calls me home
I race the sun and westward go
O'er grassy plains and forest loam

My actions may seem strange at first
To those with eyes that cannot see
That there's no greater sight on Earth
Than the ever/never changing sea

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Super Spy from the Backyardigans
Benevolent Dictator
24 June 2012 @ 03:33 am
Title: In Need of Saving
Author: Amouralamer
Length: Chapter 1/?
Pairings: JaeMin
Rating: This chapter: PG-13

A/N: Some angst, but those of you who have read my fics know I can't let my JaeMin end badly.

Summary: Jaejoong and Kangin are partners, Changmin and Shikyung are partners.....stuff happens.....things change. (Sorry for the crappy summary!)

Disclaimer: .....not mine.....

Chapter One: A Day in the Life...Collapse )

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: Tarantellegra by Susu
Benevolent Dictator
13 April 2011 @ 11:32 pm

Jaejoong: "I'll take one of these".
Current Location: home
Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
Current Music: Beyond the Sea
Benevolent Dictator
25 October 2010 @ 08:19 pm
I have never met my father. My mother left him before I was even born I think. I was never allowed to see him when he tried to contact us. There was some talk that he was planning to run away with me to Mexico so it is understandable. The last time he tried to see me I was 12. My mother didn't even tell me until years later.

Now I am 36. I have thought over the years about looking for him and getting to know that side of my family, but for one reason or another never have. He was into partying I think, drugs too maybe. Honestly, I wasn't sure I wanted that influence in my life. I always figured that I could maybe watch from afar...meet him without letting him know I was his daughter. I've checked things on the internet, but never found anything concrete.

This past August I was vacationing on the Oregon Coast with some of my family and my cousin and I got to talking. My father came up somehow (I don't remember how) and it got me curious so once I got home I started looking him up again. This time I found something.

An obituary.

It seems he has been dead since May of 1989. I would have been 15 at the time, just 3 years after he tried to contact me. I don't think my mom had even let me know by that time. The obit just said that he had died in his home so I'm thinking overdose.

It seems surreal that he has been dead for 21 years. He was only 38 when he died. Only 2 years older than I am now.

In his obit it mentioned his surviving family and in it I learned my Grandmother's name: Trinidad. I started looking her up and found another obituary. She died just this past May. She lived in the same town my maternal Grandfather lives in. We had my daughter's first birthday party there in April so I was in town one month before she died. It makes me sad to think of it. She was just across town while we were celebrating the birth of a great-granddaughter she didn't even know existed. A granddaughter of her deceased son. I wish I could have taken my daughter there and met her. She was 92 years old and living in a nursing home. I would very much have liked to meet her.

So it seems that the two people on my father's side that I was interested in meeting are dead.

I think I regret not meeting my grandmother more than my father just because I could have met her, whereas I didn't really have the option to meet my father since he died when I was so young.

It all just makes me feel so weird.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Benevolent Dictator
25 May 2010 @ 10:29 pm
My daughter Kairi turned one on April 18th and we had a lovely party for her at my Grandparents' house! Here are a few pics.

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Current Location: Home
Current Mood: lovedI love my daughter!
Current Music: Intoxication by Su
Benevolent Dictator
10 September 2009 @ 10:30 pm
Title: It’s Magic
Author: Amouralamer
Length: Drabble
Pairings: Jaejoong/Junsu
Rating: PG

Disclaimer: Urm…..can I rent them?

Summary: This was for the jaesu_challenge Drabble Challenge: Lullaby

Waves wandCollapse )
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: "Love after Love" by Dbsk
Benevolent Dictator
24 August 2009 @ 03:31 pm
Title: Square Circles
Author: Amouralamer
Length: Oneshot
Pairings: Jaejoong/Junsu
Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: *pouts*

Summary: This was for the Jaesu_Challenge prompt : I said Oh! A square without corners. He replied No! A circle with corners.

It started in the light.Collapse )


A/N: This was my first JaeSu and my first time entering a fic contest. It was a lot of fun, I'd do it again. Those of you who enjoy JaeSu and contests should check out jaesu_challenge. They have a new contest every month! This months challenge prompt is "Beneath Hate". Check it out.
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: restlesstwitchy
Current Music: The Way You Are by Dbsk
Benevolent Dictator
21 August 2009 @ 03:40 am
Title: Keeping the Faith (More of a declaration than a title.)
Author: Amouralamer
Length: Oneshot
Pairings: None. Friendship/OT5ness.
Rating: G
Disclaimer: I just want them to be happy.
Fic Summary: The night before the verdict.

A/N: I’m out of the loop, has anyone heard anything yet?

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Current Location: Middle of nowhere
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Hug by Dbsk
Benevolent Dictator
14 July 2009 @ 02:29 pm
Title: Change of Heart: Epilogue
Author: Amouralamer
Length: 20 chapters + Epilogue
Pairings: Jaejoong/Changmin, Others
Rating: Fic: Up to Nc-17, This Chapter: PG
Genre: Au, Romance, Smut, Fluffy sap (Flap?)

A/N: Ta Da! Here it is! v(^o^)v

Fic Summary: Jaejoong and Changmin are straight, college students and fellow co-workers. A night out starts a chain reaction that changes their lives forever.

Disclaimer: I REFUSE to say they aren't mine! *thinkspositive* /(>.<)\

Previous Chapters:

[Chapter One][Chapter Two][Chapter Three][Chapter Four]
[Chapter Five][Chapter Six][Chapter Seven][Chapter Eight]
[Chapter Nine][Chapter Ten][Chapter Eleven][Chapter Twelve]
[Chapter Thirteen][Chapter Fourteen][Chapter Fifteen][Chapter Sixteen]
[Chapter Seventeen][Chapter Eighteen][Chapter Nineteen][Chapter Twenty]

♥ Change of Heart: Epilogue ♥Collapse )

Current Location: A good place :)
Current Mood: contemplativeconflicted
Current Music: Father Figure by George Michael
Benevolent Dictator
01 July 2009 @ 08:41 pm
Title: Surprise, surprise!
Author: Amouralamer
Length: Oneshot
Pairings: Jaejoong/Changmin
Rating: PG-13, just to be safe
Genre: Humor

Summary: Jaejoong and Changmin have something to tell the other members.

Disclaimer: If I can’t have Dbsk, I’ll settle for my own holo-deck. Can you just imagine…?

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Current Music: 867-5309/Jenny by Tommy Tutone